Time to buy oil: Fighting Bulls & Catching Knives

Summary: I’m thinking of buying oil

That’s about it for this time: The oil price is down to multi year lows, and below marginal cost of production (debatable), and thus I feel like buying some. This is not advice; here is the disclaimer.

The rest of this 15-minute article is an introspection into my own functional Asperger syndrome (a bit like Michael ‘Big Short’ Burry who made a fortune in the housing crash of 2008), my contrarian inclination, and why crowd independence can be a significant predictor of success in the stock markets.

Do you have similar personality traits and have you learned to benefit from them?

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WTI Crude below 44



Dyed-in-the-wool contrarian

Oil is crashing – I’d better buy soon! (That’s what I did earlier this year, then sold when the bounce turned into an upward trend. Now I feel like buying again, just as people start panicking with WTI crude below 44 [I’ll buy Brent, though])

Gold is crashing – How soon can I get my hands on some (more)? (That’s what I thought about a year ago, and now again as gold is falling even deeper. I’m thinking more and more of getting physical)

The above trades went pretty well, but as a natural contrarian, I am usually wrong, or at least way too early (which amounts to the same thing). I also just never get to enjoy riding a trend for very long.

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That’s how I’m wired; I don’t get caught up in crowd events like concerts or sports, and I instinctively distrust trends.

Growing up, I was often the odd one out. Or just plain odd. It took at least 30 more years before I realized why…

On the other hand, I assimilate facts at face value and I’m patient, really patient. In the long run*, I usually win (on the market) against the socialized lemmings that eventually fall off the cliff. They, however, typically feel better** most of the time.

* (unfortunately, that might be when we’re all dead – my current big market short might fall in that category)

** feeling at all counts as ‘better’ ; )


Being asocial made independent views natural

I hate people – or so I thought about a decade ago (N.B. I was 33 by then, so hardly a spring chicken). Then gradually I realized I just liked to be alone, reading, learning, thinking and solving problems (which was impossible with people around – imagine trying to concentrate sitting alone in a dark room, knowing there is a large venomous spider, snake or similar there with you).

In my late 30’s I eventually understood that I actually liked people; in the right doses, and in non-learning and non-performance contexts, and when I presented my conclusions from my alone-time. I never labelled myself with Asperger syndrome though – until just the last few years, when I was 35-40.

I’ve never been accused of jumping to conclusions. On the contrary, rather being a bit retarded ;)

Five-six year ago, I felt a kind of kinship with the Asperger-diagnosed investor Michael Burry, when he was portrayed in The Greatest Trade Ever (2009) and The Big Short (2010). At the time, however, I thought it was just wishful thinking that we shared any deeper similarities. “I’m a bit like Steve Jobs, I like Apple products too“.

I actually had read the (amazing) bookThe curious incident of the dog in the night-time” by Mark Haddon 5 years earlier, in September 2005. It is written from a person with autism’s perspective. I did see some vague similarities, but mostly I got upset when the boy couldn’t control himself better… (sic), and it never struck me I could be diagnosed with a anything remotely similar to what Christopher had.


Discovering autism spectrum disorder

My closest friends and girlfriends (and their parents, not to mention mine) knew about my condition long before I did (I just learned yesterday that as early as 2002 or 2003, my girlfriend and her father discussed my potential autism due to my folding my underwear. Other close friends diagnosed me the first time we met, or so long ago that the exact timing is irrelevant).

Many immediately sensed I was different, but didn’t get a specific term for it until much later. Asperger wasn’t standardized as a diagnosis until the 1990s (and by then I had already gone to college to study finance and thus escaped the system)

They never said anything to me, which was probably for the best*.

*I sometimes wonder if I performed better not truly understanding my particular condition. Had I known, I might have tried to second guess myself, with unpredictable and unstable results. Trying to be contrarian is not a sustainable path; you’ll soon lose track of what is your true stance.

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Advantage Asperger

Peter Thiel has quipped that entrepreneurs with functional autism spectrum disorder (“Aspergers”) have an (unfair) advantage in Silicon Valley. Among other things, they can benefit from having a more singular focus, less or no trouble with rejection or going against the grain, and sometimes even special skills.

Hedge fund managers often profit from the same characteristics*: being naturally contrarian, independent of herd behavior**, weighing wins and losses equally, being cool under pressure, unemotional, and generally thinking in absolutes and facts, rather than relativistically and fads. A big drawback, however, is the inability to ride trends* to their conclusion (bubble peaks, and depression troughs).

* Not all of course; far from it

** which brings back memories of when I thanked “the long only crowd for creating opportunities to go short which led to my fund’s win” (read more in my free eBook)

I’ve never felt comfortable in crowds. It’s not that I’m actively uncomfortable; I can stand by myself for hours just observing, but I have trouble following and participating in several conversations at once, in particular in noisy environments. And, more importantly, I hardly see any upside from being in a crowd, unless you hope to meet somebody new, or if you are normal and social and can appreciate the crowd vibe, that I never even perceive (alcohol helps though).

I think a big part of my hedge fund’s success was our independent thinking, our unbiased view of going long and short respectively, and not being connected with the European and UK hedge fund “clubs”. In as much, I am grateful for the personality traits I have, be they clinical ASD or not, even if they make me slightly handicapped socially.


Suspense and surprise

The inspiration for this article actually came from a recent Freakonomics podcast about movie and book plots (and news shows).

When the hosts and the guest proudly described how popular TV shows, movies and books often use a formulaic approach – with three major twists and a certain technique for maximizing the uncertainty (suspense) about the next step, as well as the eventual surprise – I almost felt physically sick.

That’s why I tend to not like ordinary books or TV shows. I want facts, or a story line that progresses from point A to point B, preferably with a message. If the facts are surprising, all the better, but please, please, hold the manufactured artificial suspense – in particular if you have no facts or bigger story to convey.

I guess that formula works for people who are interested in people

Some TV series exhibit a really good first season, where everything is thought through from the pilot to the season finale. Unfortunately right at the beginning of season two most fall back on a formula of single or double episode tasks and excursions, spiced with mostly annoying flash backs.

I guess that formula works for people who are interested in people, and who like the feelings that suspense and surprise provide. I just keep wondering, when will the real story materialize?! OK, back to business:


Oil, investing and Asperger

My style of research and analysis, as well as portfolio management was (and still is) pretty straight forward:

I checked the available facts. I made plausible assumptions about the future regarding the variables themselves, the operations and management of the companies and the stock market environment (including risk tolerance and valuation paradigm).

Then I recommended/bought whatever was really “cheap” (a very complex situation-dependent notion), sold whatever was really, really expensive (twice the margin of safety needed), and didn’t give a damn about the usually more than 90% of the market in between. The latter means I let my Excel models rest until something triggered (don’t ask) my interest in those companies again.

Then I waited. And waited. And waited… (well, I of course kept digging and looking for better opportunities, or reasons my investment was or had turned wrong. I also traded a bit on top of the basic investment – adjusting perhaps a fourth up or down depending on weekly and monthly fluctuations)

…Which leads us to oil. I made my first investments in oil early this winter/spring, 21 years after getting my first job in the finance industry. The same goes for gold, although I bought and sold my first batches of gold a year or two earlier. Pound Sterling and USD… Same story, with my first transactions in 2013-14.

The good thing with my particular point in the ASD spectrum is that as long as the facts don’t change, I am infinitely patient.

The drawback is that I get hamstrung regarding speculating, riding trends, joining fads. I can of course, I not sealed off from the real world, it’s just that it feels so uncomfortable I can only do it for very short periods of time if the variables are wrong.

-Unless I’m dealing with inherently worthless factors, such as fiat currencies and gold :). Then I can speculate with ease of mind.


Fighting Bulls & Catching Knives

So, oil, gold, what have you, drops sharply and suddenly my spider sense tells me to buy (I’m not talking about perma-bulls buying every little 10% dip. I’m talking about -40% at least), right when most people just want to get rid of their assets at any price.

Often, I short too early, fighting every bull I see, and then hang on to those shorts like a pit bull, all the way to the peak and down again.

Then I buy 40% down (if that’s enough to normalize the price or make the asset cheap), catching knives with both hands, and keep buying at -50%, -60%, -70% and so on, and hopefully make a decent return when fortunes turn – right before selling way too early again.

As long as I keep a sizable margin of safety and my sense of intrinsic value is well honed, I make good returns over the cycle. But in between, sometimes… (so be careful in trying to follow my lead; perhaps you are better off just buying and holding)

Oil, however, actually is quite a different story than gold or currencies (FX). Oil has a production cost, and a business value. And now the price has not only more than halved in short order, it is also way below assessments of marginal production cost (65 USD for Brent), even if we are going into a super recession in 2016-19 (before the Age of Machines and Solar start in the 2020s).

In the very short term, oil of course can, and probably will, fall even lower than right now, due to Saudi Arabia’s need of money, Saudi Arabia’s will to destroy the shale industry, the coming global recession and China slowdown and shadow banking implosion, general oil price trend etc.

On the other hand money will keep being printed, and the global economy will at worst stand still nominally before expanding again. Hence, my best guess is that the oil price will bounce back to at least the marginal cost of production (for a volume at least on par with demand today) within two years.




I’m tempted to buy oil now, but maybe you shouldn’t be

That‘s why I’m suddenly (starting Friday August 7) tempted to get some exposure to the (brent) oil price again. That, and my inherent contrarian disposition (I hate people and crowds ; )

Do you know yourself well enough to be trusted with your own money on the financial markets?

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And just a few facts to round off: A standard oil barrel contains 42 gallons or 159 litres and weighs a little more than 300 punds. The 42-gallon standard oil barrel was officially adopted by the Petroleum Producers Association in 1872 and by the U.S. Geological Survey and the U.S. Bureau of Mines in 1882, since the full-sized 84 gallon watertight barrel simply was too heavy to handle for one person.

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Coming to grips with productivity after travelling and partying

15 minutes: I would be very surprised if this article takes you more than 15 minutes to digest. What you’ll get in return is a new slant on productivity, boombastic jazz, and a kick in the butt regarding your stock market activities. Oh, and some of my pics from Ibiza the last few days.


Productivity can be illusive

My definition of a boombastic jazz style is this!

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Travelling with Ronja builds character

Okay, linking to a random YouTube clip from my youth might smack more of procrastination than productivity, but consider this advice:

Never put off (just) until tomorrow, what can safely be scheduled for the day after that.

Hmmm, am I getting my message across here? Perhaps not just yet, but believe me that both statements will be tied in very neatly with the main theme of productivity.

I came back yesterday from 10 days of travelling, during which I did exactly zero writing and not significantly more reading – not even fiction. I did alter* my state of consciousness a lot though – not least on Ibiza. How productive was that?

Well, how can this (pic of our Ibiza living room this year) not be productive (=worthwhile)?

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*meditating, schmeditating, medicating…


Why strive for being productive?

I constantly get bombarded by questions regarding my activities, now that I don’t have a job. I guess what they are really asking is how I can stand not being productive (which is one of the basic human driving forces, and used to be necessary for survival).

Today, I even found myself thinking in terms of not having been productive for ten days straight. Quite out of character for me to think that way. The second after, however, I immediately started pondering the word productive in itself.

My first thought had centered around not writing, not reading articles, not working out. So wrong.

My second, corrective, thought simply asked the most important question in the world: why?

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Busy doing nothing at Destino


Purpose is everything, Mr Andersson

It all boils down to the why of things, to the purpose.

It’s amazing, really, how profound Mr Smith’s monologue on purpose was in the Matrix trilogy.

Being productive means being both effective and efficient. That, however, does not mean doing what others expect you to do as quickly as possible. It means doing whatever brings you closer to your desired state, in the best way possible (which sometimes is a slower [preparing, meditating] or more roundabout [education, or whoring out] manner).

I read and write because I like it in the present, as well as because it makes me evolve and grow, because it conditions my brain’s plasticity and prepares me for the future. I don’t do it to simply fill my days, or to keep on some arbitrary blog schedule.

Sure, I want to spread my ideas as widely as possible to make the world a better place, but I won’t do it at the cost of my own ultimate goals (don’t ask. No, I mean it; don’t ask).

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If you have a productive imagination

I urge you to reconsider the definition of “productive” in terms that apply to you specifically:


What is being productive to you?

Is it productive to go to the gym? Why? You want to get stronger? Why? You want to live longer? Why? Sometimes it’s simply more productive in many ways to not go (building motivation, resting strained tissues, prioritizing something else)

Is it productive to train your brain to understand feedback loops, or avoid biases, to know math and languages, to make it more plastic? Why? To get the highest paying job possible? Why? To get the most rewarding job? Why? Is it to never postpone what can be done do right away? Why not? [That’s one tie-in]

Is it productive for you to become smarter? Why? What pleasures will you reach for with your new super smarts?

You want to get richer? Why? Sure, money and time can resolve a lot of issues, just rarely the important ones. What are you going to do with the extra money? Invest to get even richer? D’oh!

You want to become more aware, more mindful? Do you feel behind schedule when you can’t make time for meditating or doing mindfulness exercises? Why? What will you do with your increased sense of unity with the physical world?


The cute path to hell

Oh, make no mistake, I am all for becoming stronger, wiser, smarter, plasticity-er, more aware and mindful. I am acutely aware of my own purpose and the ultimate answer to my own why:s. I just want you to question your own choices along the “cute” path society has made you believe is the only one (also known as Keeping Up With The Joneses = KUWTJ).


Question everything, trust no one

Lesson one is to question the meaning of being productive.

For me it’s sometimes about meeting people, hanging out with friends, kicking back, altering my state of consciousness with alcohol, coffee and other drugs.

At other times, it’s reading fiction, meditating etc.

At yet other times it’s challenging myself, my body, my brain, my fears and insecurities.

Once upon a time, it was about making a pile of money as quickly as possible. Before that, it was all about surviving as comfortably as possible from day to day; about not getting caught naked, not being put on the spot.

Lesson two is about questioning all your power words; realizing your relevant definition is somewhere along a spectrum of possible definitions.

What is being courageous? is it doing something dangerous, something you are afraid of? Not necessarily.


Healthy? Healthy food, lifestyle, workout routine? Is it vegan food only, is it working out every day, is it never indulging in sweets, fat, salt, alcohol?

Discipline. Sometimes it’s about working out despite not feeling it. Sometimes it’s the opposite; being psychologically strong enough to rest the required time, even if you’re lagging

What is your definition of a boombastic jazz style? Mine is this! [Second neat tie-in, although my mind actually goes completely blank when asked what a boombastic jazz style really is]

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Destino Pacha – meditated in the pool, mouth below surface, for 90 minutes straight, while doing an epic split


Stock market implications

Oh, I know it’s all you guys really care about… Getting rich quick schemes, preferably on the stock exchange.

Then, consider this:

If you really want to make money on the stock exchange. If you want to go about it in a productive way. Then why do you assume following charts on your off hours, combined with luck, will make you beat experienced and immensely more connected, rich and powerful individuals and firms?

Why do you take chances? Why do you treat the stock market as a casino with way over 100% payout ratio. Why don’t you heed my advice and invest rather than speculate?

Being productive in investing means investing for the long term. Invest systematically. Invest productively: either in cheap stocks, in your own skills or in a business of your own. See previous articles on investing here on my START page if you haven’t read them already.

On the stock market: What is being productive? What is being courageous? What is being disciplined? What is a boombastic jazz style?

I can tell you what isn’t productive: following the herd, following the trend like a lemming, speculating blindly without putting in the work

I can tell you what isn’t courageous: doing exactly like everybody else

I can tell you what isn’t disciplined or decisive: buying the dips with no plan B, implicitly betting on selling to a bigger fool at just the right time 

I can tell you what isn’t boombastic: crying over your losses after the fact; crying that nobody knew what was coming, blaming your broker, blaming analysts, blaming media. No, boombastic is thinking for yourself and taking all the credit and all the losses on the same ego account.

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“Boombastic” is getting a pop bracelet at the pool for being a cool dude

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P.S. Here you’ll find pics and stories from last year’s Ibiza trip in July:

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